Lonely 3/14

Am I to end up like the whale I've heard of
To endlessly find the one who will never come
Moments come and feel like there's a slight hope
But when that sunshine seems inevitable, the clouds reappear
Dashing what feels like happiness and surrounding me with despair

Is my happiness only supposed to be crowded laughter, directed at me
I feel liked, or even love, and then......gone
They say to not rush into things, but emotions is what I run on
If it is a detriment, then I apologize, but so be it

Of course, this could all change
But in this, little over quarter century I have breadth,
I've seen this many times before

The smile I have grown seems forced
The grit I worn, is slowly dissolved
I will most likely shed this part of my life,
yet sadly will look back at it as being that fleeting moment I didn't want to lose

Lonely, forever keep me company